My mama used to tell me never write down something you wouldn’t want me to read. She was crazy and wise. At times I don’t write about things because I know nothing you write down is truly safe. But there are other times I write through the fear of my raw self being exposed to…well whomever.
I want this life. A life I haven’t figured out quite yet. I want someone who understands my heart, someone who sees that I am simply me. It sounds all corny and whatnot, but I truly want someone who grabs me in the middle of the day and dances to a song that reminds him of me. I want someone who is able to understand I may seem strong but there are times when I need him to grab me and hold me, just because. I don’t want to be the strong one. I want to be the protected one. I found this song, it touched me. I don’t want a “captain save a ho”. I want to to be loved in a way I have never known, well I’ve known it I simply can’t have it.