I am confident person. I know at most things I am smart and I’m an out of box thinker, a nerd and I embrace those things about me. I am PROUD of me.
Our counselor asked if I thought The Mister desired me…I said yes I thought he did, he disagreed with me. He doesn’t think I believe he finds me desirable. AND YA KNOW…he’s right.
I don’t think he’s all that into me. On some level I know that he loves me and for the most part I think it stops there. I don’t feel he sees me. At this point I’m too fearful to been seen. *sigh*
I still have no sex drive… none. I know I have to have sex and I WANT to want to have sex, but I do it because it’s what he needs. I’m not sure what I need at this point.
It’s only with him that I feel so small. How does that happen?