I wanted to write you today, but here I sit silent. Unmoving. I feel torn about how I handled this.
From one day to the next I don’t know how I’m going to feel.
Some days it’s relief and some days it’s sadness. Oh how I miss you. Really miss you. Worse than before. I keep trying to close this off, to make this right. To make it FEEL right.
From one day to the next it does and then it doesn’t.
Sometimes it takes my breath away. Sometimes I think of something you said and I laugh, really laugh.
There are moments when I feel like crying. There are moments of calm.
Oh how I miss you.