I can only take it in small doses. I know what you want from me. I believe we have long ago established it simply can not be. I love you from a far and I need you to stay far away. Physically and at times emotionally. I know we tore the wall down. I know you laid yourself bare for me. Showed me who you really were so I’d believe it. I believe you I truly do but that doesn’t make a difference in my world. It doesn’t change who I am or how I live. I know that is what you wanted. I feel the yearning.. oh how I would love to throw life a curve and leave that wall down,but I was honest from the beginning that simply is NOT going to happen. You can not change what is, not even with sheer will or force. I will not allow myself to carry the responsibility of your broken heart or your bruised soul. I have showed you who I am…please believe me.