I’ve really been thinking lately what kind of nurse I want to be. My clinical experience thus far has been lackluster. I hear classmates talking of how they love this or they have been woo’d by that. While I enjoyed my time with the little ones, I have no desire to work in Peds. The Alzheimer’s care center was a big “HELL NO” as well. I know once I finish school the main focus will be to get employment. A lot of places do NOT want to hire new nurses…I get that, but to those places I also say, don’t try and recruit me in a couple of years when I’ve met your experience standard. I would encourage employers to give SOME new nurses a chance…it looks for in the long run.
While I would love to work some place where there are no new nurses (after I have experience of course) I understand clearly that nursing is about paying dues…hazing if you will…I’m almost positive I will be in a work environment where I am the sage nurse helping a new graduate. It is the way of the nursing world. While I don’t look forward to that, I know someone is going to have to do it for me and I will pay it forward and do it for someone else.
I’m also looking toward the future…I have decided (for now at least LOL) I don’t want to be a traditional nurse. I have no desire to work on the floor in the hospital, to play the games that must be played when you are in that setting. I don’t want to be surrounded by a bunch of catty emotional men and women. I see it at the hospital and it makes my skin crawl. I’ve read about it time and time again from other nurses and students. I simply want something different for my nursing career. I understand politricks, I get the jockeying for position and shine. I don’t want that to be my everyday life. For this reason among others I am looking at using nursing as a stepping stone and getting out of the traditional career of nursing in a timely manner. I know graduate school is in my future. But sadly I can’t express that while I’m in school and on the floor.
Nursing seems to be a very crabs in a barrel dynamic. It seems that a lot of nurses A LOT are offended if you don’t want to do what THEY are doing (what is this middle school?). Hell we dress alike EVERY fucking day isn’t that enough insanity? I don’t know if floor nurses fear you will surpass them or you are taking shots at what they have chosen to do with their lives, but they(from what I’ve experienced) have a keen objection to new nurses even hinting they want to move beyond the grind of floor work. Hey if you like it YIPPY SKIPPY for you, I ain’t knocking your hustle. There is a WHOLE WIDE WORLD of nursing out there and I plan to find something that pays WELL, works for me and doesn’t tear up my body and spirit.
That is where I am for right now…all of this is subject to change, but I’m firming up plans to do what works for me. I suggest other students and nurse do the same.