I can’t get back to sleep and I know I’m going to pay for it later.
I woke up with you on my mind this morning. Everything seems so surreal.
I don’t know what I’m suppose to do now. I still can’t put myself out there. I still feel closed off and safe.
I don’t know what to say or should I say I don’t know how to say what I need to without harming you, without harming us.
I can’t place demands on you, so what is truly left to say?
Therein lies my problem.
I know nothing is going to change, promises will be made and broken. We will be the same sad tired folks we were before.
I feel I’m different now, but I know you are not, because you are simply you. I should be able to accept that, but I can’t, not right now.